I wish that people would always remember to shut the gate or door behind them. This is partly to stop letting things escape (like my dog Magda who loves to run wild at the slightest hint of freedom), but also to keep me protected, inside.
I don't do well when doors aren't fully closed behind people when I've made it clear I want...no NEED them to be. I don't react well to letters out of the blue from old boyfriends you've stopped talking to because they once hurt you like you thought no one ever could. I don't need to hear the secretary's chatter after a visitor to my office leaves. The bedroom door must stay closed because that's a way to save myself if there's a fire. The bathroom door stays shut because ... well, for obvious reasons when you live in a small apartment.
I just need closure of gates and doors and that's really all I wanted today. I'm a little sorrowful, and I'd like to weep behind them.
Bonfire of the Memories
6 days ago